*UGH*

Here it is in the afternoon and I haven't even been awake but for 2 hours. I was so riled up last night that I couldn't get to sleep despite the fact that I was completely exhausted! I don't know why this is bothering me all of the sudden, seems so retarded! I have been reading a lot on HysterSisters and it has brought up so much that I didn't even think about. Like with losing my cervix, will I always be dry? With leaving my oavries, will I still ovulate and how? When will I go through menopause? How about if they take one ovary or both? What is the difference there?

I made a list last night of questions to ask the doctor at my pre-op appointment on the 12th and also a list of things to take to the hospital. HS has been a great site for those things! I of course added a couple of things to their list of what to take - like I read in one post, taking an iPod seems like staple! I'll definitely be taking mine with a charger because even though I'm a Medical Assistant, I still hate hospitals and have the hardest time sleeping there. I'll also take some crossword puzzle books to keep me busy when I'm alone up there. Of course make up and a curling iron because heaven forbid I look like crap after surgery! LOL I know I won't be up to doing my hair but my sister is coming up so she'll fix it for me. God love her!

I hate to admit this but I am going to begging people to come visit me. With Joe working 2 jobs, that will leave a LOT of time with me being alone post-op. I don't think I can handle that! I know, I know, I'm a chicken. I can't help it, hospitals creep me out. Anyway, I better get to cleaning the house and preparing dinner. Not to mention praying harder that God help me find peace. LOL